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RIP Chester Bennington may you find peace in the beyond

Posted in Creativity, Event, Life, lost, Lyrics, Mind - Psychology, Music, Personal, Society, Songs, soundtrack, This May Help U!, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 22, 2017 by vixstar1314

Mental health illness of depression and suicide are real things.
It is scary because they are demons others can’t truly hear or see. But for the people who suffer from it, it’s rather constant because the thoughts are always there. It’s so difficult to be able to shut them out and escape.depression.jpg

Over the years these have gotten worse and more and more people suffer from it. On some levels the awareness is being bought to more people’s attention.
Just a few days ago the suicide of : Chester Bennington rocked the world as a whole. Linkin Park’s music had save millions and for Chester it saved him for two decades as well but finally the pain within got too much.

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Imagine for him to sing these lyrics that he wrote, must have both been a way of releasing it from inside but also from seeing his eyes during live performances you would notice it was quite painful to associate these words to his past and memories. Music was definitely a hemisphere where he would go to escape and to express so much inside that he had built up.

From the words in many of the songs it clearly depicts his life journey, thoughts, darkness, happiness and emotions. So much power in these words alone. Let alone what was actually going on inside his heart and mind must have been a billion times more.

To have to result to taking that final step of taking his own life after experiencing the outcome of what happened when his friend Chris Cornell took his life and knowing the impact of it all and how hurt and hard it was on his family, friends and fans. Meant he really couldn’t take it anymore.
Suicide is never so clear-cut, you cannot blame the person who did it and you definitely feel so sorry for those they leave behind.

The very scary thing is, from experience I think a lot of people who have or are going through deep depression know that deep deep down they have locked a specific demon away as hard as they can. The demon that whispers to them to end it all. This is one of the hardest thing to do because it continues to fight so often to try to come out.
When I hear the lyrics from Linkin Park’s Leave out all the rest:

“When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest”

I feel like something inside of Chester knew one day if it happened when that demon manages to come out and he cannot take it anymore these words are to all those he loved and cared about to ask for their forgiveness but also giving them the power to continue on without him. Hence why this song is one of my favourite from them because these words are something that echo more than just simple words but stringing it all together provides an explanation on some level.

I truly hope all those gentle souls who were unable to find peace in this world can in the beyond.



Nobody knows

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, lost, Personal, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , on June 25, 2015 by vixstar1314

Nobody knows……….



Posted in Creativity, Life, Personal, Society, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , on April 29, 2015 by vixstar1314

Love –  I say is the strongest of emotions and powers.
Love can be aimed at absolutely anything or anyone, thus making it extremely lethal.
You “love” too much that you do certain things:
You “love” something so much it turns to hurt/hate/strength/drive/obsession…
Your “love” can become passion for something so much so that you endure.

You can “love” yourself or others so much that it becomes a beauty or even destructive.

Much of the beauty or issues in this world falls down to love:

The pursue of:

Money- “love” of money

Power – “love” of power

Someone – “love”

Love even has the power to kill or cause death.

The line is drawn on the depth of it.

Love is what binds and breaks humans at the same time.


Posted in Crime, Event, God, Life, Personal, Reads, Society, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on December 17, 2012 by vixstar1314

One of the strongest “power” we as humans possess is that of “instinct”. Why is this? Because it’s the purest of actions, regardless of whether it’s good or bad due to it being based upon first reaction, which completely bypasses thinking and past experiences. As when you only have milliseconds to react – thinking is no longer an option or choice. What happens in that instant is solely the true intention and reflects your actual characteristic and that is what floods out. Because you don’t have time to judge, think of your past experiences or use your logic to analyze the situation. It comes from the deepest part of the heart, be it true quality or true flaws they are revealed in an instance.

Which brings me to the tragic shooting in Connecticut elementary school on 14th December 201226 innocent lives lost in matters of seconds. 20 of which were kids that had barely lived – they had so much ahead of them. Then there were the brave teachers who sacrificed themselves to save their young students. Amongst them were 27-year-old teacher Victoria Soto who died trying to save as many as she could in her first grade class.

truehero14122012In that instant and ending….Her true bravery and hero came out, her instinct and pure self was that of saving and protecting others. Deeply moving and sad but definitely something we should learn from. Her death and those of the others were not in vain. If anything this will hopefully make the world as a whole remember what really matters in life. Furthermore tighten the laws of guns and make us reflect more on society as a whole.

May they all now be protected by angels

R.I.P and may your memories, smile, strength, innocence give us all strength to continue on and be better people.   

Taken too soon – but never forgotten

Charlotte Bacon, 6
Daniel Barden, 7
Olivia Engel, 6
Josephine Gay, 7
Ana Marquez-Greene, 6
Dylan Hockley, 6
Madeleine Hsu, 6
Catherine Hubbard, 6
Chase Kowalski, 7
Jesse Lewis, 6
James Mattioli, 6
Grace McDonnell, 7
Emilie Parker, 6
Jack Pinto, 6
Noah Pozner, 6
Caroline Previdi, 6
Jessica Rekos, 6
Avielle Richman, 6
Benjamin Wheeler, 6
Allison N. Wyatt, 6


Nancy Lanza, 52
Rachel Davino, 29
Dawn Hochsprung, 47
Anne Marie Murphy, 52
Lauren Russeau, 20
Mary Sherlach, 56
Victoria Soto, 27

prayers and candles

Dear God,

Posted in Creativity, God, introspective, Life, Personal with tags , , , , , , , , , on December 13, 2012 by vixstar1314

Dear God,

As you already know I am an ordinary person who hides a thousand feelings behind the happiest smile. Holding tightly onto hope and wishing that eventually life will treat me better. I continue to believe you have my back, even if the wind before me is grilling you will hold me up. Even if the words in my heart cannot be expressed you can still hear them.

Sometimes things work out. Sometimes things don’t. There is a reason for everything even if most times it does not feel like it. This is life. I know you are putting me through tests, but please stand closer to me.  DearGod

Walking in the night

Posted in Life with tags , , , , on May 19, 2012 by vixstar1314

No one truly want’s to walk alone, it is hard.It can get quite dark at times. I know the feeling. There are times when I ask God to give me strength to keep walking. God let’s me know that it is in darkness that stars can truly shine brightly.


Darkness dawns upon us all every night.

For some it is a scary time, it is when thoughts that they try to hide away from during the day surfaces.


For others it is a time of peace and calm. Where the light appears.



Regardless of the night, be patient even if you feel like you are always in the dark, remember the night is darkest before the dawn and your dawn will come. You will be fine.









Rock Bottom

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Personal, This May Help U!, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , on October 13, 2011 by vixstar1314

Dear All that may be struggling,

Remember you are are not the only one and you are not alone.

Albert Einstein – Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving.

Even if you hit rock bottom the only way remaining is to keep moving and go back up.

Love from,

Someone that understands.

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