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What I count as a form of very sad moments in life…

Posted in introspective, Life, lost, Personal, Society, This May Help U!, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , on October 30, 2015 by vixstar1314

….When love isn’t enough – when two people deeply love each other but the force of something or someone else is strong enough to cause them to part even though they both know they love each other, that is one of the saddest situations to be in. For every commitment, change or choice one makes they forgo another aspect in their life. Sometimes without even realising they are doing it. Worse is when they have their priorities wrong and not even knowing it themselves, until they look back and realise…but then it is already too late, it has passed by…becoming regrets.

Even though it is said love is the greatest power, because people die for love. It is unexplainable feelings which defy logic and reasoning at times.

Short burst of adrenaline love or long-enduring true meaningful one? I personally would go with the latter.

Another sad irony has to be when what originally bought two people together, is in the end what also tears and separates them. Leading to them going their separate ways. That is one of the most sad and tragic irony of life and love….

Paradox of life

Posted in Creativity, Life, Personal with tags , , , , , , , , , , on October 21, 2015 by vixstar1314

My worse fear is the deaths of those I care. Yet they are realities which will happen eventually just not sure when. And the realisation and thought that is just heart wrenching. Paradox of life and love is death and pain.

This is life!

I may look young but I have seen and known pain and suffering. I have experienced a lot of bumps and falls in my life.

My foundations of life and living is rather profound. However I rarely share these with those around me as I am consciously aware that the majority of them have been bound by perspectives created by society known as “life today,” the images, the celebs, the materialistic aspects, the need for more of everything that is in actual fact hollow and empty, the short bursts of what they deems as “happiness.” In a non conform society one would see these stuff as without depth. Therefore I feel as if i have been born into the wrong time and place. An alien on this planet in this “society”.

So I reframe from expressing majority of my thoughts and feelings because they are so different from others. So much more clear and clean  cut. I guess this is where my blog comes in sometimes, as here I feel that the typing allows the freedom in me to flow out into a different hemisphere – the cloud.

Cut like a knife

Posted in Lyrics, Songs, soundtrack with tags , , , , , , on October 2, 2015 by vixstar1314
Bryan Adams – Cut like a knife
“Drivin’ home this evening
I coulda sworn we had it all worked out
You had this boy believin’
Way beyond the shadow of a doubt

Then I heard it on the street
I heard you mighta found somebody new
Well who is he baby – who is he
And tell me what he means to you

I took it all for granted
But how was I to know
That you’d be letting go

Now it cuts like a knife
But it feels so right
It cuts like a knife
But it feels so right

There’s times I’ve ‘bin mistaken
There’s times I thought I’d ‘bin misunderstood
So wait a minute darlin’
Can’t you see we did the best we could

This wouldn’t be the first time
Things have gone astray
Now you’ve thrown it all away

Now it cuts like a knife
But It feels so right
It cuts like a knife
But it feels so right”

Contradiction pain

Posted in introspective, Life, lost, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , , on August 19, 2015 by vixstar1314

Contradiction inside against that of the outside world and society makes it difficult to balance.

Constantly like a tug of war.

I am torn.

Jewish memorial

Posted in Crime, Life, lost, Society, Thoughts, Travelling with tags , , , , , on May 29, 2015 by vixstar1314

We  will never truly know exactly how many Jewish people were victims of the Holocaust.

To me one of the most powerful memorial to date that I have visited is the Jewish memorial in Berlin. It has 2711 columns giving of a feeling of being in a vast maze, for us to feel the lost and confusion that victims had felt.

The memorial seemed so basic and simple – formation of simply just grey blocks ranging in height and sizes, but I believe in the phrase “simplicity is the true complexity.”

The day I was there it had just rained. The sky had started to clear, however raindrops hung onto the blocks like tear drops. Being at the memorial left me feeling a sense of heavy sadness that was hard to express. To know that millions of innocent lives were lost was heartbreaking. We shall not forget.




Do I “Mind” – Cognitive dissonance

Posted in introspective, Life, Mind - Psychology, Personal with tags , , , , , on March 7, 2015 by vixstar1314

Overthinking causes the mind  to torture yourself.

I know my mind is not reliable,

I know that the memories I have are exaggerated and my thoughts add more details to re-create them to keep them alive.

They are no longer real.

The uneasy feeling when you have conflicting thoughts and beliefs is called Cognitive dissonance.

Underneath pain is hurt,

underneath hurt is love.

Life entails many twists,

and turns,

each one is a process we must travel along.

It’s the Catch-22 of depression recovery:

The things that help the most are the things that are the most difficult to do.

There’s a difference, however, between something that’s difficult and something that’s impossible.

cognitive dissonance


Take a temporary escape from reality and enter into a different world. Depending on your interests I would suggest different “escape worlds”.

You can try books, journals, movies, games, music, a long walk…

Whatever allows you to completely zone out for a few hours.

Take that time to allow yourself to relax and stop thinking.

Then after you feel a bit more clear again,

re-approach those questions calmly. Reminding yourself you are not alone and there are always solutions and answers.

All I want

Posted in Creativity, Event, Life, lost, Lyrics, Music, Personal, Songs, soundtrack, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , , , on January 20, 2015 by vixstar1314

“All I Want” – Kodaline


All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door
‘Cause if I could see your face once more
I could die a happy man I’m sure When you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside
I lay in tears in bed all night
Alone without you by my side But if you loved me
Why’d you leave me?
Take my body
Take my body
All I want is,
And all I need is
To find somebody.
I’ll find somebody like you.

Oh oh

So you brought out the best of me,
A part of me I’ve never seen.
You took my soul and wiped it clean.
Our love was made for movie screens.

But if you loved me
Why’d you leave me?
Take my body,
Take my body.
All I want is,
And all I need is
To find somebody.
I’ll find somebody.


If you loved me
Why’d you leave me?
Take my body,
Take my body.
All I want is,
All I need is
To find somebody.
I’ll find somebody like you.


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