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RIP Chester Bennington may you find peace in the beyond

Posted in Creativity, Event, Life, lost, Lyrics, Mind - Psychology, Music, Personal, Society, Songs, soundtrack, This May Help U!, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 22, 2017 by vixstar1314

Mental health illness of depression and suicide are real things.
It is scary because they are demons others can’t truly hear or see. But for the people who suffer from it, it’s rather constant because the thoughts are always there. It’s so difficult to be able to shut them out and escape.depression.jpg

Over the years these have gotten worse and more and more people suffer from it. On some levels the awareness is being bought to more people’s attention.
Just a few days ago the suicide of : Chester Bennington rocked the world as a whole. Linkin Park’s music had save millions and for Chester it saved him for two decades as well but finally the pain within got too much.

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Imagine for him to sing these lyrics that he wrote, must have both been a way of releasing it from inside but also from seeing his eyes during live performances you would notice it was quite painful to associate these words to his past and memories. Music was definitely a hemisphere where he would go to escape and to express so much inside that he had built up.

From the words in many of the songs it clearly depicts his life journey, thoughts, darkness, happiness and emotions. So much power in these words alone. Let alone what was actually going on inside his heart and mind must have been a billion times more.

To have to result to taking that final step of taking his own life after experiencing the outcome of what happened when his friend Chris Cornell took his life and knowing the impact of it all and how hurt and hard it was on his family, friends and fans. Meant he really couldn’t take it anymore.
Suicide is never so clear-cut, you cannot blame the person who did it and you definitely feel so sorry for those they leave behind.

The very scary thing is, from experience I think a lot of people who have or are going through deep depression know that deep deep down they have locked a specific demon away as hard as they can. The demon that whispers to them to end it all. This is one of the hardest thing to do because it continues to fight so often to try to come out.
When I hear the lyrics from Linkin Park’s Leave out all the rest:

“When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest”

I feel like something inside of Chester knew one day if it happened when that demon manages to come out and he cannot take it anymore these words are to all those he loved and cared about to ask for their forgiveness but also giving them the power to continue on without him. Hence why this song is one of my favourite from them because these words are something that echo more than just simple words but stringing it all together provides an explanation on some level.

I truly hope all those gentle souls who were unable to find peace in this world can in the beyond.



The Mind

Posted in Creativity, God, Life with tags , , , , , , , , , , on July 26, 2010 by vixstar1314

No one really knows a person completely, because no one can get into other people’s mind,  everyone behaves different towards different people, different places, different situations etc. does that mean we all sort of have a very light form of split personality? I hold my hand up and admit I feel like a different person when I’m hanging out with friends, when I’m at work, when I’m by myself, it’s strange because until I stopped and think about it, I don’t realize this, it just happens subconsciously. But I guess every one is like this right???

The best and worse place at times is in my mind. This is where I conjure up creative things, where so much goes on within, where logic and thoughts flow constantly. However at the same time it’s the worse place at times too, because at times I cannot control what goes on inside, I cannot figure out my own mind, I want to stop thoughts  yet I don’t seen to be able to. It is said that the mind controls everything, including the heart, which is pretty much true in my view. The mind is so powerful, it can take you places you have never been, even never will go to, sometimes these places you did not even want to go to but you cannot stop it. Some say the mind drives you crazy I totally agree. This is why, when people have mental disorders, that affects the mind or the mind actually does the it, itself such as split personality, schizophrenia etc..It makes me really sadden by it because “theoretically” speaking the mind is yours, you should be able to control pretty much most of it. So when you loose most or even at worst all of this control it must be so unbearable.

Yet without the mind, we are nothing, there is no existence. The mind is apart from God and a few things like the universe etc, is one of the greatest creation by God. Think about it, without God giving us the creation of the mind how would there be stuff like technology, light, science, maths etc…….The mind allows us to be creative, to come up with ideas for greatness. It is a gift that God has given us whether it is a blessing or a curse can at times be debatable yet we cannot fault that the mind essentially make’s human’s what they are…………

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