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Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Story, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on October 18, 2013 by vixstar1314

dark_snowVixstar1314: *short collection of thoughts*

It has been months,

and it hasn’t made any sense.

Each day I hope it will become clearer,

but my hope was in vain.

As it just becomes more and more murky.

Sinking me further and further.

There was no longer any plans.

No big pictures.

I just struggle through each day,

trying to go by and hold myself up.

Darkness has become so familiar.

Everything has become an illusion.

How can I hate you,

when it would be like hating apart of myself.

Somewhere I still hold onto something.



The fall

Posted in Creativity, Event, introspective, Personal, This May Help U!, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on September 1, 2013 by vixstar1314

The season – the fall – is now upon me.

I am struggling to find my place in the world,

so many things I see around me still causes me to think about you.

It has been months,

And I have tried to let go,

but still so much lingers.  

It has come to a point whereby,

too many things are making me want:

 to run,

to escape,

to hide,

to break everything,

so that I can start again.







They all echo and haunt me.

Writing allows me to feel present and more “alive” so much more than how I feel in reality.

This place is a somewhat “safe” and “definite” hemisphere that I fail to feel in reality.

I am seeing and experiencing,

so much more of my mind and body,

but so far I have yet to be able to control it,

nor fully adapt to it.

To feel II

Posted in Creativity, Event, God, introspective, Life, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , , on May 19, 2013 by vixstar1314

If you lower your expectations, you limit your disappointments and chances of being hurt. Have hope but don’t expect too much because we are likely to encounter more disappointments in life, compared to the peaks.everythingstopped

When you are hit by continuous bursts of disappointments, it actually becomes so hard just to breathe. You get this feeling of sinking, deeper and deeper. deep  infinite


Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Personal, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on April 9, 2013 by vixstar1314


What I see in the present and that of the future I so badly crave has great discrepanciespresent_future


Hoping for: sinking to rise


Dear God,

Posted in Creativity, God, introspective, Life, Personal with tags , , , , , , , , , on December 13, 2012 by vixstar1314

Dear God,

As you already know I am an ordinary person who hides a thousand feelings behind the happiest smile. Holding tightly onto hope and wishing that eventually life will treat me better. I continue to believe you have my back, even if the wind before me is grilling you will hold me up. Even if the words in my heart cannot be expressed you can still hear them.

Sometimes things work out. Sometimes things don’t. There is a reason for everything even if most times it does not feel like it. This is life. I know you are putting me through tests, but please stand closer to me.  DearGod

Constant Battle between Perfection and Flaws

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Reads, Society, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on December 7, 2012 by vixstar1314

The constant battle in life that we encounter of perfection and flaws is accurately portrayed by F. Scott Fitzgerald’s classic novel of:

“The Great Gatsby”

We all deep down crave to live a life of happiness and try to continuously do so by being optimistic and trying to see the whole world in a more simple light. We try like Jay Gatsby to see life as goodness and with hope, so we try to ignore the darkness of reality and the corruption that constantly circulates in this world.

However reality is that no matter how hard we try this world is deeply flawed just like we are. There is just too much dark and complex problems generated in this world. Even if you try to not get involved or see it in a better light. It will eventually either absorb you into the darkness and you conform with it, or it will destroy you. This is shown by the character Jay Gatz/Jay Gatsby.

One of numerous reasons why this novel has lived on for so long and continued to be a top classic novel is because it is so true and even after years the concepts still apply.


I see you

Posted in Songs, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , , , , on July 13, 2012 by vixstar1314

Leona Lewis – I See You lyrics

“I see you
I see you

Walking through a dream, I see you
My light in darkness, breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me, enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends

I see me through your eyes
Breathing new life, flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love

You teach me how to see all that’s beautiful
My senses touch a world I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you, I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends

I see me through your eyes
Breathing new life, flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life, I offer my love, for you

When my heart was never open
(And my spirit never free)
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not envision
All the colors of love and of life evermore

(I see me through your eyes)
I see me through your eyes
(Living new life flying high)
Flying high

Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice

And live through your love
And live through your life
I see you
I see you”

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