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The phoenix that is you

Posted in Creativity, Life, Personal, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , on July 26, 2017 by vixstar1314

You will always be the phoenix.

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No matter how many times I have tried to suppress thoughts of you and lock you deep inside my heart. One way or another when I least expect it, you rise again. Tugging at my mind and heart string. Making me think of the memories we created together, making me wonder how your life is going, do I ever cross your mind?

You will always be the one that I connected the deepest with. That one that I wished in an ideal world we would be one.

I clearly remember this one dream I had a few years ago, whereby my ex-boyfriend was looking at me, I was standing by my current boyfriend who was looking at me, but I was looking at you…I believe on some level this depict my deepest, truest desires and feelings.

The feelings and thoughts about you have decreased over the years. But they still appear several times a month. Sometimes these thoughts are quite dark, like if I was on the brink of death would I miss you the most, would you be my last thought and regret? Maybe you was always my fire, the one that light me most but also the one that burnt me the deepest. However the only thing that is real between us now is the distance…..

 

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Bonfire Heart

Posted in Creativity, Lyrics, Music, Songs with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on October 10, 2013 by vixstar1314

Bonfire Heart ~ James Blunt

Your mouth is a revolver firing bullets in the sky
Your love is like a soldier, loyal till you die
And I’ve been looking at the stars for a long, long time
I’ve been putting out fires all my life
Everybody wants a flame, but they don’t want to get burnt
And today is our turn

[Chorus:]
Days like these lead to
Nights like this leads to
Love like ours
You light the spark in my bonfire heart
People like us, we don’t need that much
Just someone that starts, starts the spark in our bonfire hearts

This world is getting colder. Strangers passing by
No one offers you a shoulder. No one looks you in the eye
But I’ve been looking at you for a long, long time
Just trying to break through, trying to make you mine
Everybody wants a flame, they don’t want to get burnt
Well today is our turn

Days like these lead to
Nights like this leads to
Love like ours
You light the spark in my bonfire heart
People like us, we don’t need that much
Just someone that starts, starts the spark in our bonfire hearts

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To Live

Posted in Creativity, Event, God, introspective, Life, Personal, This May Help U!, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on May 20, 2013 by vixstar1314

I happened to come across an article that caught my attention:

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/education-22596027

This article prompted me to share some thoughts about “continuing to live on, especially through struggles.” It is true that you have to live your own life, it is your responsibility to make choices that you believe in, because at the end of the day only you can truly judge your actions and face the results. However even though we are all our own entity, we co-exist in a world together with others. Some become deeply embedded into our life. We live for ourselves, but we also live for others that we care about and those that care about us. We live to see and share each others future. We live to be there for them. Everything merges together, be it opposites, similarity, elements, people, actions, they all connect or collide at some point….Even water collides with fire.
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Yes the world is massive, and most of us  only play a very small part in this massive world. If you are a chess player than see it as we are all only a small piece in a big game. You may feel at times that your existence is not that important. This may seem true a lot of the time, however if you divide and look at it parts by parts then the “players” in smaller groups become more vital within each sector. Without your existence, some people will feel the effect. So remember this:

when you are struggling,

when you don’t feel important,

when you want to give up,

when you can’t imagine your own future, 

when you feel small,

stop and remember that somewhere out there, people do care for your existence. They may know it, or they may not know it yet but in this massive world, you do matter, you are a piece of it for a reason, God has given you a purpose, you are connected one way or another. You need to play on, continue on to see it.  

 

Writing

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , , on November 3, 2012 by vixstar1314

Work of Vixstar1314©I write for no particular reason or maybe I write because of too many reasons that I cannot narrow down to just a few reasons. Either way I like the idea of being able to recollect my thoughts, feelings, memories, ideas and place them somewhere other than in my head and its  nice to know I can put it somewhere out there in this world.  The truth is, even if no one reads it I will still continue. I guess as there are times when writing lets me feel therapeutic. Then there are times when it makes me feel angry. The combination varies and changes with each day that I go through. I guess there is also a part of me that thinks its special knowing that others may experience and understand some of the feelings. Or may be able to get something out of my writings, poems, thoughts….

Everyone has their own opinions of writing and what they would classify as good, bad, interesting, boring, powerful, dull…… Here are a few reasons I personally think makes good writing:

-if it keeps you reading

-makes you think

-enables you to feel

-takes you into a different world

– teaches you

I could go on but we would be here forever.

Let me try to put in words what I think writing does to me – well it enables me to find and discover more, lets me escape, pass on thoughts, I feel that sometimes I don’t want to speak but that by no means should stop me from having tons of thoughts running in my mind, and writing relieves myself in words that does not flow out in my speech.

Thoughts by thoughts. Ideas by ideas, words by words, events by events go from mind to text.

After the above writing I feel its only right to write down some deeper thoughts.

The world collects my words,

without realising at times it is also collecting my heartache.

It’s painful when I am ignored or there is a big distance,

between me and the one person thats attention means the world to me.

So many nights I had wish it would become easier,

physically we are miles apart,

however for me mentally you are too close,

you have settled in my heart.

My heart has shattered,

never being able to be replaced,

I wish you knew.

Hiding from you,

not daring to reach out at all.

I am not clear anymore,

nor do I really understand.

The day is dark,

the night is hollow.

My thoughts are out of control.

Comfort is in sleep.

You are like snow,

constantly melting within me,

I am never able to completely hold you.

How do I stop these feelings,

these memories are living and breathing inside of me.

I have used so much effort,

to get the snow that will never last.

Using memories to conjure what is now a joke.

You can rise,

and I will continue to fall and break.

I have exposed myself too many times to fire,

and know that the closer I get to it,

the more I will get burned,

yet the memories live on like burning flames all inside of me.

Tragic situation of right and right.

       Those feelings I can never truly explain.

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