Archive for change

Yesterday

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, lost, Personal, Thoughts with tags , , , , on February 4, 2016 by vixstar1314

Upon thinking and thus realizing that things are going to change and you will lose certain aspects is when your inside unravels, your true feelings, and views about stuff and people come up to the surface.

You realise how good yesterday was.

I will miss that in today.

Tomorrow is the changes but my heart will still be heavy.

Letting go

Posted in introspective, Life, Personal with tags , , , , on March 10, 2015 by vixstar1314

I have finally reached that line and walked over it.

The line of letting go of you.

LettingGo

I always knew you meant much more to me than I meant to you, however I thought at the very least I had a significant meaning of worthy value to you. But time told me differently. Quite a significant period of time had passed by, your distance and isolation of me had nearly frozen everything inside of me. It got to a point where it hurt so much it finally scattered and thus, I was truly free.

Memories of you and of us will always linger. I am sure once in a while my mind will wonder what you are up to, how is life for you, do you ever regret the way you treated me? However the impact you caused attacked me from all directions continuously, it was emotionally, financially and mentally. These subsequently affected me on a physical level as well. I endured this in my mind even after you had left for a long period of time. You let me down so badly and betrayed my trust to the extent that words will never be able to comprehend. It took so much and so long to stand back up and recover from it all. But I can now put my hand on my heart and say I am finally able to let go.

LetGo

Weight of the world

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Lyrics, Music, Society, Songs with tags , , , , , on February 8, 2015 by vixstar1314

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder every living moment.

I know this is the way of life but too often it causes me to collapse too deep. 

Now I wish I could really just fly away.

Fly somewhere far far away.

The below song is fitting for my mood

Chantal

Kreviazuk

Weight

Of

The

World

I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
I don’t know why I was so afraid… all the time
Memories seemed to bother me.. my whole life
I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
I don’t know why I was so ashamed
Such a waste of time
And I don’t know who I was trying to be
All those lies
I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly
Oh and there’s always something
Or somebody right behind
Well we’re not meant to be everything
We’re just a piece
So spread your wings
Oh I don’t know why I was so afraid all the time
I used to carry the weight of the world
And now all I wanna do is spread my wings and fly…

Lost and blurry

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, lost, Personal, Society with tags , , , , , , on February 3, 2015 by vixstar1314

I can see a few lights scattered around me,

however the world around me seems and feels so blurry IMG_9100

I am struggling to see the clear path that I so badly need and want.

All that is left is to wander around into the dark.

Hoping to find a way out.

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Take Me To Church

Posted in Creativity, Lyrics, Music, Songs with tags , , , , , , , on February 2, 2015 by vixstar1314

“Take Me To Church” – Hozier

My lover’s got humour
She’s the giggle at a funeral
Knows everybody’s disapproval
I should’ve worshipped her sooner

If the heavens ever did speak
She’s the last true mouthpiece
Every Sunday’s getting more bleak
A fresh poison each week

‘We were born sick, ‘ you heard them say it

My Church offers no absolutes
She tells me, ‘Worship in the bedroom.’
The only heaven I’ll be sent to
Is when I’m alone with you—

I was born sick,
But I love it
Command me to be well
Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen.

[Chorus 2x:]
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

If I’m a pagan of the good times
My lover’s the sunlight
To keep the Goddess on my side
She demands a sacrifice

Drain the whole sea
Get something shiny
Something meaty for the main course
That’s a fine looking high horse
What you got in the stable?
We’ve a lot of starving faithful

That looks tasty
That looks plenty
This is hungry work

[Chorus 2x:]
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me my deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

No Masters or Kings
When the Ritual begins
There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin

In the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene
Only then I am Human
Only then I am Clean
Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen.

[Chorus 2x:]
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

Lost in Life

Posted in introspective, Life, lost, Personal with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on January 4, 2015 by vixstar1314

Life moves constantly.

However when we feel like we are stuck in a dark place this can feel like never ending. Eternity. I can honestly share with you that in my life I have been through countless highs and low. There have been times where I have been lost in life.

Each time I muscle up the strength to bring myself back to make the changes needed.

By saying things like:

Your life. It is your own personal story. Review and reflect in between living it, then push forward. Continue on. Live it!

Which way do I spin

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Society with tags , , , , , on December 18, 2014 by vixstar1314

A part of me is left somewhere everyday.

But at the same time a part of me is chipped away from witnessing and feeling the deep flaws surrounding the world.

Sometimes a few aspects in life helps to make life seem like there is a bigger purpose. However far too often the holes inside of me feel too empty that it is infill-able.

I don’t understand why and how I feel the need to see a much bigger picture of this world, instead of just my own circle. I try spinning to re-adjust my view points and focus but each time it just makes me dizzy and brings me back to square one.

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