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Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, lost, Personal, Thoughts with tags , , , , on February 4, 2016 by vixstar1314

Upon thinking and thus realizing that things are going to change and you will lose certain aspects is when your inside unravels, your true feelings, and views about stuff and people come up to the surface.

You realise how good yesterday was.

I will miss that in today.

Tomorrow is the changes but my heart will still be heavy.

Until The Last Falling Star

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Lyrics, Music, Songs, soundtrack with tags , , , , , on January 16, 2016 by vixstar1314

Matthew Perryman Jones

Until The Last Falling Star

“If there was a chance
That we could be lovers
I’d write you a book

Of handwritten letters
And burn them all up to the end
Just to start over again

If there was a chance
That we could be lovers
I’d learn how to dance
And to hold without touching
Oh love
Where have you been
I’ll wait for your lead to come in

So tell me the secret
Is there a way into your heart
‘Cause I want to believe it
Oh will I be wishing
Until the last falling star

If there was a chance
That we could be lovers
I’d swim seven oceans
And keep going further
I’d hold my breath until
You slipped those words
That belong on your lips

So tell me the secret
Is there a way into your heart
‘Cause I want to believe it
Oh will I be wishing
Until the last falling star

Say a line
Could be anything
Just stay with me

So tell me the secret
Is there a way into your heart
‘Cause I want to believe it
Oh will I be wishing
Until the last falling star

So tell me a secret
Is there a way into your heart
‘Cause I want to believe it
Oh will I be wishing
I’ll keep on wishing
Until the last falling star”

Different me

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Personal with tags , , , , on January 7, 2016 by vixstar1314

I am often surprised at how other perceive me and how I actually feel within, because far too often they differ so much.

People appear to see me as lighter, energetic, funny and happy. Little do they know that depth within me and the many layers. Truth be told, inside I am darker, sadden and my view on the future is almost non-existence.

I think many people have different versions of themselves that they show. I think the best me is when I am alone, as I am the freest then.

First steps of 2016.

Posted in introspective, Life, lost, Thoughts with tags , , , , on January 3, 2016 by vixstar1314

Life is a mission when you are not sure how to go forward, or where to go to.

2016 has come round, I constantly hear a new year, a new start. Yes and No because you are still using the same body as in 2015 but entering into 2016. All the variables in life makes it so difficult to try to figure out how to move forward, I constantly write that I am at a crossroad. It is like life is full of them. Some people seem to luckily sail through life not actually really needing to work hard, for me each step is a fight. I also say to myself it can only get better, but after a while I start to become unsure….

It is only the first steps of 2016…..

Being able to step into 2016

Posted in introspective, Life, Personal, Reads, Society, This May Help U!, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , , , on December 31, 2015 by vixstar1314

….is a gift.

Life and today isn’t a given. To have what you have today is already a gift. Treasure it, as you don’t know if tomorrow would come. Furthermore if you wish to go back to yesterday it is impossible.

As people say: live everyday like it is your last day and one day you will be right. Upon being on the last day of 2015 and approaching 2016, I see past and future. Old and new. Death and Life. We are guaranteed a mixture of these in our life time but often we cannot control them. Especially in today’s society I feel that there is higher risks all around us than ever before. Is it bad to feel unsafe in your own society, the world seems to have become a more scarier place. Therefore I would like to be able to control what I write and when it appears. I know tomorrow may come but I what to leave this behind in case it doesn’t. So when that day comes round I will be physically right one last time and I would like to convey the following:

The strangeness of it all is that upon reading this message it will truly be from the past into your future. Odd and sad but hopefully with a touch of much-needed answers and providing meaningful understanding about me over the years from reading my posts. There are so many times when I had not been able to put both my thoughts and feelings into speech and I guess that would be most difficult for those closest to me, my family. I have often not been able to say the simplest but truest aspect of I love you, I understand. But the truth is I really do.

Deep down within me I always felt like I could do good for this world, day-to-day I try to be a better person and citizen to fellow people. I believe there is good in us all. So lets all say bye to the bad and sad in 2015 and start a fresh in 2016, if we have that gift to step into 2016 treasure it and make it worth wild.


Posted in introspective, Lyrics, Music, Songs, soundtrack, Thoughts with tags , , , , , on December 13, 2015 by vixstar1314

“You” – Keaton HensonĀ 

If you must wait,
Wait for them here in my arms as I shake
If you must weep,
Do it right here in my bed as I sleep
If you must mourn, my love
Mourn with the moon and the stars up above
If you must mourn,
Don’t do it alone If you must leave,
Leave as though fire burns under your feet
If you must speak,
Speak every word as though it were unique
If you must die, sweetheart
Die knowing your life was my life’s best part
And if you must die,
Remember your life

You are
You are
Oh, you are
You are

If you must fight,
Fight with yourself and your thoughts in the night
If you must work,
Work to leave some part of you on this earth
If you must live, darling one,

Just live
Just live

Flipping backwards to some old posts

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Mind - Psychology, Personal, Reads, Thoughts with tags , , , , , on December 7, 2015 by vixstar1314

It is strange when I read back on some of my posts and writings, it is like deep down I have expressed so much but over time during each day I forget the essential aspects. They are forced out by daily routines, society’s so call “norms,” and the noises surrounding me constantly from other people. It brings me comfort when I re-read some profound old posts I have written which refreshes my frame of mind again. Brings out the real and meaningful aspects of life again. It reminds me I have grown and developed into as a good person even more than before. I may not have “grown” in the “traditional” way in terms of increase of money, however I have obtained what I believe is more worthy and valuable than money itself. Qualities and experiences that money cannot buy in any way. If I was to cease to exist in this world today, I can put my hand on my heart to say I have lived as much as I could in the time I have been given. I have consciously tried not to waste my time on meaningless aspects in life. I have spent my time on people and aspects that personally mean a lot to me.

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