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RIP Chester Bennington may you find peace in the beyond

Posted in Creativity, Event, Life, lost, Lyrics, Mind - Psychology, Music, Personal, Society, Songs, soundtrack, This May Help U!, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on July 22, 2017 by vixstar1314

Mental health illness of depression and suicide are real things.
It is scary because they are demons others can’t truly hear or see. But for the people who suffer from it, it’s rather constant because the thoughts are always there. It’s so difficult to be able to shut them out and escape.depression.jpg

Over the years these have gotten worse and more and more people suffer from it. On some levels the awareness is being bought to more people’s attention.
Just a few days ago the suicide of : Chester Bennington rocked the world as a whole. Linkin Park’s music had save millions and for Chester it saved him for two decades as well but finally the pain within got too much.

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Imagine for him to sing these lyrics that he wrote, must have both been a way of releasing it from inside but also from seeing his eyes during live performances you would notice it was quite painful to associate these words to his past and memories. Music was definitely a hemisphere where he would go to escape and to express so much inside that he had built up.

From the words in many of the songs it clearly depicts his life journey, thoughts, darkness, happiness and emotions. So much power in these words alone. Let alone what was actually going on inside his heart and mind must have been a billion times more.

To have to result to taking that final step of taking his own life after experiencing the outcome of what happened when his friend Chris Cornell took his life and knowing the impact of it all and how hurt and hard it was on his family, friends and fans. Meant he really couldn’t take it anymore.
Suicide is never so clear-cut, you cannot blame the person who did it and you definitely feel so sorry for those they leave behind.

The very scary thing is, from experience I think a lot of people who have or are going through deep depression know that deep deep down they have locked a specific demon away as hard as they can. The demon that whispers to them to end it all. This is one of the hardest thing to do because it continues to fight so often to try to come out.
When I hear the lyrics from Linkin Park’s Leave out all the rest:

“When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest”

I feel like something inside of Chester knew one day if it happened when that demon manages to come out and he cannot take it anymore these words are to all those he loved and cared about to ask for their forgiveness but also giving them the power to continue on without him. Hence why this song is one of my favourite from them because these words are something that echo more than just simple words but stringing it all together provides an explanation on some level.

I truly hope all those gentle souls who were unable to find peace in this world can in the beyond.



New Years Eve

Posted in Event, Life, Personal, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , on December 31, 2015 by vixstar1314

…and here I am again, finding myself waving bye to another year and relunctantly being pushed into another one. Compared to the year before I can say this year has been a bit lighter and calmer than the previous 2 years. It has not been great, but this year I think I have developed and learnt to give up the thought of perfection. There is no such thing! I now see things in a 60% or 70% measurement there is no longer 100%, I am done with that. What will 2016 hold? My guess is as good as yours. I guess you have to go into it to find out…. Bye 2015. 

Here I am, 2016…be kind to me please…


Deep inside here and somewhere beyond

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Life, Time with tags , , , , , on November 25, 2015 by vixstar1314

Even though now we are nothing, just a pile of memories. I still feel inside of me that a deep part of my soul has and will always love you. Even if you are not here by my side. Like my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything, thus will love you to the end of my time. Maybe somewhere from the start we were from the same galaxy or star and was split apart. Just like we are now on Earth as well.

What I count as a form of very sad moments in life…

Posted in introspective, Life, lost, Personal, Society, This May Help U!, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , on October 30, 2015 by vixstar1314

….When love isn’t enough – when two people deeply love each other but the force of something or someone else is strong enough to cause them to part even though they both know they love each other, that is one of the saddest situations to be in. For every commitment, change or choice one makes they forgo another aspect in their life. Sometimes without even realising they are doing it. Worse is when they have their priorities wrong and not even knowing it themselves, until they look back and realise…but then it is already too late, it has passed by…becoming regrets.

Even though it is said love is the greatest power, because people die for love. It is unexplainable feelings which defy logic and reasoning at times.

Short burst of adrenaline love or long-enduring true meaningful one? I personally would go with the latter.

Another sad irony has to be when what originally bought two people together, is in the end what also tears and separates them. Leading to them going their separate ways. That is one of the most sad and tragic irony of life and love….

Night time thoughts

Posted in Creativity, Life, lost, Mind - Psychology, Personal, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , on October 11, 2015 by vixstar1314

At night my thoughts are dark just like the night skies. At times just like the clouds lingering around my thoughts. They are clouded. Once in a blue moon the light and stars appear allowing me to see the light on the other side of the tunnel. Nevertheless the night brings a sort of strange peace among all these because it generally lets me be free from having to fully interact with others, as I sit around the quiet night whilst most are asleep in a different world, I, myself are kept awaken by my thoughts that pull me deep into the dark, the darkness.

Stars, you and I

Posted in Creativity, introspective, Lyrics, Music, Thoughts, Time with tags on September 17, 2015 by vixstar1314


Partial clone of me

Posted in introspective, Life, Personal, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , on August 24, 2015 by vixstar1314

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