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Dark me tonight

Posted in God, introspective, Thoughts with tags , , , , , on July 5, 2015 by vixstar1314

Dear God,

I long to believe so much about love, life, future, the world, humanity and the greater good but the dark demons in me blocks out the light. I struggle to grasp the light to pull myself out to see more of the beauties in life. I asked you something today which I know I shouldn’t but it was just in my head. Is there a heaven above, and do I need to get through this so call life to reach my final peace destination of heaven? 

I feel as if tonight will be a night which my pondering mode will reach highs…


Because my mind is  never clear. Why? Too many contradictions. Thoughts. Theories. Memories. Experiences. Which simultaneously occur in my thought processing. My mind is by far so different to most people in this world……


The World we live in….

Posted in Creativity, Event, God, introspective, Life, Society, This May Help U! with tags , , , , on June 29, 2015 by vixstar1314


I retreat

Posted in God, introspective, Life, Mind - Psychology, Personal, Thoughts with tags , , , , , , on May 24, 2015 by vixstar1314

It was music, blogging and books that made me think perhaps I ain’t really alone.

Life is actually so much more difficult when I am more conscious and aware of everything around and inside me.

There are so many times when I want to be away from society away from this black hole that tries so relentlessly to suck people into the lure of its so call “beauty,” “norms,” “how to behave and conform to the mass” with materialistic, culture, money, greed, reputation, fake and hollow empty world that I cannot accept nor willingly conform into. Thus, I retreat into my own inner world for salvation to find God.

My time on Earth

Posted in Creativity, Event, God, Life, Personal, Thoughts, Time, Travelling with tags , , , , , on May 3, 2015 by vixstar1314

Earth is only a place we temporarily land on for a journey. It is kind of just a long pass by. Eventually we all leave here. Whether that is to heaven, hell, re-incarnation, into the ground… No one actually stays alive on Earth forever. There is no permanent. Learn to “embrace” and also “detach.”

Time is your ticket. There is no return. The clock just ticks and ticks. For some longer than others but sooner or later it stops. Your life clock finishes.

So for your time on Earth live it, let it go by or embrace it. That is really up to you and how you feel is fitting for you. Some want to build themselves or question meaning of life, their purpose, pursue materials, fame, money….

Just remember this: one day you will leave and you will take nothing, no baggage, no money, no assets, no people, nothing! It may hurt initially when you have to let go of aspects and people in life. But for me I remember that I will be completely reborn by God.



Posted in Event, God, introspective, Life, Personal, Society, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , on June 1, 2014 by vixstar1314

We all like some degree of personal space from time to time. Some like it more than others. However there is a difference between alone time and isolation. A particular difficult feeling is being surrounded by a lot of people, yet still feeling so left out, isolated, ignored or invisible. You are aware that there are lots of people in the world, but you feel like you barely fit in.

Isolation can be very empty. Even if you feel comfortable about being by yourself, it can still impact you on some levels inside.

When I feel like this, I speak to God. Who gives me comfort and peace of mind.

Ayrton Senna da Silva – 20 years on…

Posted in Creativity, Event, God, introspective, Life, Personal, Reads, Society, Story, Thoughts, Time with tags , , , , , , , , on May 1, 2014 by vixstar1314

This day 20 years ago the world lost a racing hero, but he was known not only for the racing but for his extremely unique personality, style in life, passion and faith.

The Brazilian’s death 20 years ago rocked Nations.

What I personally admire most about Ayrton is his philosophy. They were strange, unique and powerful in its own way.

Even today 20 years on from his death. As you watch him racing and interviews he had done there was something mysterious about him. It seemed like he had millions of thoughts about the world racing inside his mind. (Maybe he did as he secretly donated millions to help poor children).  He had touched the lives of many during and after his life. There seemed to be a special awe about him which is difficult to comprehend or explain but I see him as an idol.

“We are made of emotions,” he once said. He always seemed to live on the edge whether that was in racing or in life, he dared to be different.

“Just because I believe in God, just because I have faith in God, it doesn’t mean that I’m immune. It doesn’t mean that I’m immortal” (1989)

“I am able to experience God’s presence on earth,” he said. “If I go to a church,” he explained, “I go on my own and I like to be there alone. I find more peace that way.” – I truly understand and relate to this. I feel much more connected with God when I am alone with him.

“Sometimes I think I know some of the reasons why I do things the way I do in a car and sometimes I don’t know why,” he said. “There are moments that seem to be the natural instinct that is in me. Whether I have been born with it, or whether this feeling has grown in me more than other people, I don’t know, but it is inside me and it takes over with a great amount of space and intensity.”

It is like he appeared to be constantly finding himself flickering between racing, life and emotions. Even though this seemed jumpy at times one thing is for sure he knew what he wanted.

Gone but never forgotten.


Pieces drop

Posted in Creativity, God, Life, Personal with tags , , , on April 9, 2014 by vixstar1314

Throughout life pieces fall, some fall harder than others. Sometimes the pieces seem to fall accordingly into our life into the right gaps that required filling up. Other times it seem to fall to places we see no need for. I personally believe each piece falls for a reason, even if most of the time I don’t understand why. I have faith it time it will make sense. And it will fall into place now or later. Thus, eventually connecting together.


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