Disappointing

This world can be so disappointing at times.

The situations, the actions, the results, the people in it makes me wonder how flawed it all is. I understand that it is the way it is for a reason, and that God had done it this way for a reason. Even though we cannot see it, we ought to put faith into it all. Nevertheless this still causes parts within me to hurt and die a little when too many things go wrong at the same time for such a long period of time it feels never ending, or really sad things happen. The dark parts within me echoes and I feel a sense of helplessness.

I guess anyone that has been in a state of depression for some time all feel a sense of being very lost, and not knowing what to do anymore and gets to a stage of really not caring about anything because it has gotten too much.

For example when I saw the below video the parts about no one understanding, being alone, holding on for so long, living in a nightmare and not being about to wake up hit home a lot

How has the world become so messed up that kids so young can feel so isolated?

Had nothing changed over the years where those who suffer from psychological problems continue to feel so lonely and unaided even in today’s world?

Have there not been enough advancement in stuff that matter most?

Bullying no matter how little can cause scaring and significant pain to people, don’t do it.

R.I.P Olivia Liv Penpraze. Time has passed but the world has not forgotten about you.

Song today:

Miserable at Best by Mayday Parade

“Katie, don’t cry, I know
You’re trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it’s haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

Let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there and)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I’ll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she’ll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable at best

You’re all that I hoped I’d find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn’t take
Cause nothing feels like home, you’re a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I’m good for something
I just haven’t found it yet
But I need it

So let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there and)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I’ll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she’ll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable at best

Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh

And this will be the first time in a week
That I’ll talk to you
And I can’t speak
It’s been three whole days since I’ve had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I’m not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

So let’s not pretend like you’re alone tonight
(I know he’s there and)
You’re probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I’ll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she’ll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I’ll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I’ll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I’ll be miserable at best”

I want to say please help each other, no one should have to suffer these kind of pain and loneliness alone. This doesn’t make them weak, everyone needs some help sometimes in life. Even when life seems bleak remember ending it will be for eternity, whereas living on will warrant endless possiblilities it may not seem like it now but no one can predict what your own future holds. Please hold on, ride the storm, you may become weaker but eventually you will come out stronger. If all fails remember God has your back and will always look out for you.

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